2024 Reflection
2024: REBALANCE
Wow. That was a lot.
I spent the entirety of 2023 touring, and while it was so exciting to take My business to the next level, I found it incredibly difficult to balance both the real-time and online demands. I was stretching myself thin, constantly overwhelmed, and not properly taking care of myself in the process. I crashed physically, My mental health suffered, and I fell into a seemingly bottomless creative rut.
I spent the first part of 2024 feeling incredibly guilty for not being able to meet the expectations of My fans, subscribers, submissive and friends; I established a standard of excellence that I take pride in. I felt frustrated with myself for not having the strength to simply push through it like everyone else seemed to do. The next part of the year was about grace and acceptance. I came to understand that rest is a vital part of the creative process that we do not value enough. (I’m currently reading The Artist’s Way, and Julia Cameron makes this point early, too). So I traded the guilt for gratitude: for My supportive friends, family and peers; for Queen Vee, the deranged, rebellious, and creative spirit within Me; for the submissives that share the precious gift of trust and vulnerability with me; and for the absolute privilege to rest when I need to. Even though I was definitely feeling the saturnian energy of the year, I still did some pretty cool things! (Podcast feature? Hustler Magazine article - about GOONING? iWantClips collab? Imposter Syndrome is a bitch, and I’ll get rid of her one day.) I went to Seattle for the first time to attend the Seattle Fetish Ball, had my first private dining experience, saw the Lakers and Megan Thee Stallion (!) in LA, attended Torture Garden and JapanFest in NYC, and studied a variety of new kinks. I slowed down prioritized being present, and was rewarded with the ability to travel for fun, rediscover new hobbies and tackle personal goals - all things that fill My cup. Always inspired by Cocktober and No Nut November, I felt My creative spark reignite at the end of the year.
2025: INNOVATE
Even though the future looks scary, I am so, so hopeful (it’s in my blood) and excited for what’s to come this year. I’m more inspired than ever, and I’ve learned so many new things I want to experience and share with you. I won’t yap too much, because I prefer to show you.
My Goon Cult, My devotees, My treasured kinky community: Thank You. Whores never die, and perverts never break. We just adapt, and that just makes things even freakier.
